I always thought I was an "outside the box" type of person. I try to think outside the box on most things, mostly because I like to be unique. I think I might get this from my mom. But then I had a baby, and well, that changes everything. All of a sudden, hip and edgy is replaced with boring and safe. All of a sudden that 100-year Victorian in Pacific Heights with its tall ceilings and traditional molding becomes strangely appealing.Don't get me wrong. I love my apartment in SOMA, concrete and all, but at some point Peanut should have a 4-walled room that I don't have to walk through to get to mine. My current neighborhood is in transition. Once an industrial area, it is now a hotbed of condo and commercial development. 
There are mostly young families and empty nesters. You rarely see a teenager, and when you do, he's dressed in black and pissing off my one-eyed cocker spaniel with a ratty skateboard. There aren't a lot of schools here. So I ask myself, "Shouldn't Peanut be near her school? Shouldn't she be one of those fancy kids who take piano lessons and do mommy and me yoga in the presidio? Shouldn't she go to one of those pre-schools that you apply to when she's 1 month old, but to get her in there, you become a serious ass kisser?
How much of your former self do you lose so that you become the person you think you should be for your peanut? How do you be YOU and a mom all at the same time? Is Peanut better inside the box or outside of it. These are my questions.
There are mostly young families and empty nesters. You rarely see a teenager, and when you do, he's dressed in black and pissing off my one-eyed cocker spaniel with a ratty skateboard. There aren't a lot of schools here. So I ask myself, "Shouldn't Peanut be near her school? Shouldn't she be one of those fancy kids who take piano lessons and do mommy and me yoga in the presidio? Shouldn't she go to one of those pre-schools that you apply to when she's 1 month old, but to get her in there, you become a serious ass kisser?How much of your former self do you lose so that you become the person you think you should be for your peanut? How do you be YOU and a mom all at the same time? Is Peanut better inside the box or outside of it. These are my questions.
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Is that your stroller in the background? Because if it is, I'll answer your question by asking you this: remember when you told us you didn't want any toys that were colorful or resembling weird-looking animals? Dude. I think I just busted you with a Kazoo hanging from your stroller.
Still—Peanut is better outside of the box, no question. Even though she's adorable on either side.
if you're too edgy, peanut may try to find a box to get in.
but i do love peanut on either side too - and i am just so damn glad i get to see her now.
and i'll say one more time that i'd REALLY love her on this side (OF THE COUNTRY).
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